Monday, January 23, 2012

Seeking Inspiration?

There's a story about the Baal Shem Tov, the great teacher and rabbi. He once went into a grand synagogue, filled with the people of a community. At the end of the services, he said, "this shul is filled with prayer." The people began to fill with pride, they were so proud of their synagogue, and so proud of the obvious praise of the Baal Shem Tov. 
Then he began to fling the windows and doors wide open. "This shul is so filled with prayer, nothing can leave this room. They are all stuck here. Not one prayer rises to heaven."

Have you ever felt that way? Like there are so many words and ideas and thoughts floating around that you're just trapped and stuck?

I am feeling that way lately.

There are so many books I want to read, magazines to peruse, blogs and online articles and Facebook posts to consume, movies to see, television shows to watch, YouTube videos to check out, pictures to take, craft projects to try, recipes to cook, pins to click on....(all in the hours after the kids go to bed, of course!) (I don't even have the energy to link all those words...)

There's so much noise.
It's so good.
I like noise.
After all, I have four kids.

But for some reason, in the last few weeks, it has all seemed to be too much.

Fear of Missing Out. It's the new disease. What if I miss the pins, the posts, the words, the movies, the shows, the books, the....whatever.

I'm sure the solution is to step. away. from. the. computer.

But I'm not quite ready. I'm not quite sure what I'm willing...ready....interested in giving up.
I'm just thinking about it.

So I think I'm seeking inspiration...
...but perhaps I'm seeking something else.

The other day on Facebook, I posted "seeking inspiration."

I have no idea what I was looking for.

I have some great friends who gave me good things to think about.
I think partly that I was hoping someone would give me some really good blog post topics. That might be part of it. I'm taking in so much information and, in case you haven't noticed, I haven't posted a lot there's a lot going in, the shul that the Baal Shem Tov was visiting, there hasn't been much of an outlet.

Well, anyway, here I am...seeking inspiration.

In case you need a little inspiration....

Help? Leave your thoughts in the comments...


Ellen Zmmerman said...

I feel your pain -- the wanting to embrace everything. For me (in addition to my blog), I want to shoot more pictures, read more books, get back to guitar, and on and on.

I found focus for 2011 and 2012 through my friend's website:

Last year, I chose "stretch," to help me focus on getting Jewish Holidays in a Box ( up a running, even though I had to stretch all kinds of mental, time-planning, and other muscles.

This year, though, I've chosen the theme, "Let Life Lead," because there are major moments ahead in the life of our family -- and I want and need to stay flexible and be available. The freedom I have felt since making this choice is enormous.

Would choosing a theme guide you? I don't know. But if nothing else, I think you'll get inspiration from others' themes -- inspiration you can use in your blog posts.

Also, what would be so bad if you (a) invited some guest posters for 2012 or (b) reduced the frequency of your posts?

Wishing you resolution and peace in whatever you decide.

(Note to self: Turn off Outlook several times a day to allow better concentration on projects requiring strategic thought. Stop taking the iPhone everywhere, so I can't check FB and email all the time.)

Frume Sarah said...

Oh my bosom friend -- there will always be the books we want to read, posts we want to write, etc. I have often joked that I'll be the first one in line for the microchip that will transcribe my blog posts directly from my brain.

We miss your writing...but will always be here...waiting. Step back. Breathe. And know that you are loved.